💦 Because I overheat and sweat too much
😍 So pants and shorts will fit me
💁🏽 So I won’t be the ‘funny friend’ when she’s the ‘hot friend’
🙊 So I don’t feel guilty about how I look
💪🏽 So I don’t feel self-conscious at the gym
👗 So clothes shopping doesn’t make me cry
💕 So maybe someone will love me
🙏🏽 So maybe I will stop hating myself.
I need to stay focused.
I need to stop eating.
I need a slim face and a flat stomach.
I need bony hands and more defined collarbones.
I need pretty chest bones and a big thigh gap.
If I can’t be pretty
I can be skinny.
If I can’t control anything in my life
I can control what comes in my mouth.
that’s not even a desire anymore.
that’s a need.
I’m in this state where people say “ you are not fat”, but never “ you are skinny”.
